Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Knitting, birthday and Mom

That sweater from my last post never was finished. I hate finishing... I should just finish it! I also don't like the yarn, its acrylic which is plastic. I have found a new love and that is sock knitting. I bought a book on knitting socks two-at-time and toe up so I'm doing that. I tried knitting socks on dpns (double pointed needles)but only finished one sock. I get bored easily. I recently finished a beautiful scarf for my brother.
I love it because it is luxury yarn from japan called Noro. It's wool an silk.The colors are stunning and I made it rainbow for him. I wanted to show him that I support him in his life and all that he is. It's a manly yet rainbow scarf.

 My birthday is coming up. I will be 34. No real comment about that...except that I wish I was in a career and not at a job I had when I was 20. I know it's only temporary. I want to go back to school to enhance my degree and become a paralegal. I like to research and perhaps I will like the law and become a lawyer.

   My mom's birthday is the day after mine. She is retiring from her job which is great because Safeway is a hell hole. And now she is blogging. I think it's great and will help her to vent. She has it hard with my grandparents who are getting older and her brothers won't help her.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

In California

So I'm here at home and things have settled. Still things to accomplish and do to be comfortable.
I've taken up knitting again after a small pause and have become semi-obsessed. To the left is part of the sweater I'm knitting. I found this awesome website called (prolly I'm years behind finding it). It is awesome & I lub it. Tons of patterns to find and drool over.

Kristy has entered the know it all teen years as expected. I used to think that she wouldn't boy was I wrong. At least I won't make that mistake with Josh. He will become a selfish teen as well. But it is what it is.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Avatar pfft!

Ok why was Avatar nominated for best pic? I mean yes the special effects were mind blowing. It was visually stunning. But the story SUCKED! It was Pocahontas on another planet with aliens. Can't Hollywood make a better story? Because they had to dumb it down for the masses? I don't want to believe that. I think it was just the easy way out. Shame on you James. You had so much money on this, pay someone to write a different story. At least in Titanic Jack died. If he wins for original screen play the academy needs be taken out back and beaten with one of its statues.

District 9 was MUCH better. The Hurt Locker was way better. Heck Up was better!! I loved Inglourious Basterds. Christoph Waltz was just pure creepy. Creepy like how Christopher Walken used to be creepy. Now he is just silly. Coincidence that their names are similar? It was like Tarantino thought...hmmm Walken is getting too old to be creepy lets find someone similar!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Racial Road Rage in the Parking Lot

So I was turning into a parking spot by my gym. I had my signal on and was waiting for a huge truck to pass so I could park. There were TWO spots there and I had to turn left into it. Instead the guy starts to turn into my car. I rolled down the window and he yelled "What are you doing?!" I said "I'm trying to park there." He said "So am I! I'm backing in. Move your car!"

I move to another spot and as I drive away he yells after me "F-ing B-". I got out of my car, shaking. As I passed him, walking toward the gym building I said, "Calling me a name was not necessary."
"You didn't have your signal on. Learn how to drive!"
"I did have my signal on. You didn't see it. You sir, are immature, calling me names in the parking lot." I said as I was walking away.
"Sure play the racial card!" He yells back.

...? *blink blink*

"What? How is calling you immature anything to do with your race?" I said. (I think he was native. I can't tell.)
"Learn how to drive!" He yelled.
I ignored him and went into the gym, shaking and flustered.

Tell me how is that a racial slur? Are natives called immature? I'm a Native American!! One quarter Native! How how how?? I think it's because it's Friday the 13th.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Keeping With the Obsession Theme of My Sister-in-Law

So I currently am obsessed with yoga. I go three times a week to the gym and I want more.

I recently (ok not that recently) lost 40 pounds so I can now do yoga without falling on my ass. There is a ton of balance involved. It is a great feeling when all you have is going into each pose. My downward dog is getting better along with my warrior one and two. I want to be able to do crane pose. HA!Crane pose is the picture posted. It is harder than you would think. I will get it one day.

I am having trouble meditating at the end of the class. My mind wanders about what I'm making for dinner. What I should say to whichever kid is in trouble. What is next in my plan for getting back home, etc. So I push away the thoughts only to have them return. It is much easier to have a blank mind when you are actually doing the poses. Then you are concentrating on your body.

I do feel relaxed for the most part afterward. There is a class that I'm going to at the gym the involves some tai chi with the yoga. It's just the warm up but still cool to do the tai chi. Again a lot of balance work with it. One never realizes how out balance one is until you try dancer's pose or eagle pose. I wonder if sense of balance in my body has anything to do with my life being out of balance...?

P.S. Apparently cats like cream of chicken soup.

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage." -Anais Nin

Here we go, numero uno.

I'm pretty sure that I have not been very true to myself lately. A lot of ridiculous and dramatic events have happened; I have lost myself to them. So this blog is here to help me return to myself.

So here I am thousands of miles from home (not to mention in a foreign country). Trying to raise children that are not mine. Missing my mother. Missing home. And looking for the courage to keep going. I know that in the end I will make it. Heck it took me forever to get my degree but I did it. I can do this.